Dear resistance - a letter
Dear fear/resistance,
I used to fear you, fight you and run away from you.
Then I tried to prove to you that I am stronger, smarter and more awake than you. I am, don’t get me wrong.
The thing is just today I am realising that I am much more than that, too. I am more than what I am in relationship to you.
I no longer need to compare myself to how well I do not letting you run my life. This does not determine my worth, my strength, my identity.
I no longer need to prove to you who I am. You know, I know.
So I want to stop the fight with you.
Because to experience “more” of me, I need you. I hate to admit it, but you are actually a very important part of me.
I know you will be here forever.
So the question is how do we want to live together?
I guess I want to put some ground rules in place. Things you need to know.
- I want to live my life – I know that you won’t change but I will. I will not follow your way blindly. I will get stronger and stronger every time you stand in my way.
- I know that you don’t want to bring me down but make me stronger. I know you serve me and I want to stay grateful to you for this (in an exceptional way).
- I am not my mother. You are the same in her as you are in me but I have tools she didn’t have
- In case it’s not clear enough yet: You are part of me and that’s cool.
- In the moments you show up, I will always hate you and I will feel smaller than you. I am learning and I am doing my best to stay centred or come back to myself if I don’t.
- You’re the cause of all my discomfort. I know there are things more important than feeling comfortable. And on the other side of you is the comfort that I really want.
- I want to walk the path of least resistance which means I want as little contact with you as possible.
- I decided to follow my soul and she is bigger than you, please understand this. She will always win.
With this letter I honour you. I choose you like you have chosen me.
Dear fear, I am curious what our new start will bring.
I am stronger than ever before and I know that you know this.
Don’t worry, you are in good hands.